I Dont Surf. ( For J )

In response to: Wet Shore

A copper key hangs from a hook beside my bed. I read you, when that key has a quiet conversation with the jelly fish fearing  ocean fearing bear trainer in side me. But you know, that I would stride into that water to drag you out of it. You know I would bitch and curse all the way and freak out like a girl if anything touched my feet, and when we got to shore I would be checking my clothes for any signs of stow away sea life. My two greatest fears…   the things that lurk in the ocean – and fire. Watching someone I love die in a fire.  Quite the dream there sugar!

The part I liked the most was that you know somewhere deep down that I cant fix your mess, so I wont insult you by trying. I can be ‘there’ when I need to be – and I know that when you do need me to pay more attention you will say something. I love you, for your independence and your ferocity and for your strength. You get low. Really low – but it’s not a weakness. You are human and have a fuck load of shit going on.

So much for the poem I was going to write. But I felt your poem was just so beautiful and this type of response was perfectly appropriate. You have the mind of a pack leading no nonsense warrior. BUt you have the heart of someone who has been lied to, betrayed and let down and deeply broken and disappointed too many times. I believe – those things may not have been pleasant at all – but they have sharpened your sense of compassion and beauty and acceptance.

As for the music I would be sending you, that is in fact what I would do…  want to hazard a guess as to what music I would be filling your brain with – with the desire of detaching your brain from your heart?

J, your entrance into my life was perfectly timed and I am grateful for you. I don’t always show it very well because I get caught up in my own drama – you know I would cross the ocean if I needed to. And if you don’t know that – then you have not been paying attention.

Respect, Love – and mild confusion that you used the word ‘spite’ in the tags for that post.

You are beautiful.

BT, Me, Creep.